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Name: brian
Birthday: 9/1/1984
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Interests: guitar, thinking
Occupation: Student


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Thursday, November 26, 2009

Currently
Much Afraid
By Jars of Clay
Tea and Sympathy
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bimonthly update or something

thanksgiving dinner in t minus 30 minutes. got some good stuff for dinner tonight! i didn't really do much... just made the cocktail punch which is just a combo of alcohol and a whole buttload of juice. mom made some RIBS. and turkey. and some pumpkin snack thingy. helllllla good! so excited!

thinking a lot about being 25 and being an adult. i think in my own mind i'll always be a kid. haha. i wonder how much of this has to do with me living at home and the dynamic of the relationship between me and my parents. once i move over to oakland things will change though.

a lot of transition! being a 50% owner of a house, sticking around with my job, trying to write more music... adjusting to this 4/10 unpredictable inpatient schedule. it's crazy. i don't know if anyone else who does pharmacy feel this way but 4/10s are nice because you get 3 days off a week- but it still feels so damn busy and it feels like i just don't have enough time to do the things that i really want to do. except woop on calvin in soul calibur 4.

friendships are also so different. people are so different since pharm school. since undergrad. since high school. yeah things just keep changing.

what remains the same?

jars of clay's much afraid album and how much it kicks my ass every time i listen to it.

i'm thankful for everything outside of my control that has thankfully turned out alright. and everything in my control that i've f'ed up but still manages to be ok. and of course for the woman. whom i love.


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Currently
The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me
By Brand New
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everything's ok/i lose everything

everything's ok.

my mom's back from new zealand.
drinking a blue moon.
everyone's home.
just finished watching the illusionist (liked the prestige better)
now watching ace of cakes with cody.
day off today, day off tomorrow too!
house stuff is moving forward! soon i will be moving to oakland.

everything's ok. like i'm really happy today.

now i need to go running, clean my room, sign up for fastrak, setup my damn 401k, figure out what to cook for dinner tomorrow, and find my gotdamn motorcycle key which i lost AGAIN!!!!! :((((

i have a losing stuff DISEASE. no joke. one day i'm going to find all the stuff i lost, having a party in narnia somewhere. it will be a collection of:
- all mismatched costco socks, all of which i still have 1 sock left
- my CD collection
- my TWO lost motorcycle keys
- my beloved handheld supermario game that i got for my 6th birthday
- my cellphone (a blue nokia) during freshman year college allegedly stolen by a "raul garcia"
- my stylus that came with my pharm school laptop
- my gchem textbook, valued at about $200

yeah.

everything's ok. special thanks to fat wong on el camino, and our lord.


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Currently
Its Always Sunny In Philadelphia: Season 4
By Charlie Day, Glenn Howerton, Rob McElhenney, Danny DeVito
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my brother is a terrorist/work/band/asians/the woman

wow it's been a long time.

--my brother is a terrorist

so one of my brothers* got an iphone the other day and was bothering me on how to use it and take and send pictures. i was busy at the time and wanted him to go away so just i told him that the best way to send pictures is not through text messaging but through email attachment, since he has an iphone.

later that day lo and behold i get an email from my brother on my iphone entitled "test"... what could it be? probably a picture of the dog or something. to my horror i opened it and found a picture of his feces!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway since then every so often i get a feces picture cleverly hidden by a very benign subject... aka "happy monday" or anything else. once i actually opened it at work and felt hella embarrassed, hopefully no one saw. i never feel safe anymore. i live in fear. my email has been terrorized. i have no haven during my lunch break at work. sometimes i wake up in a cold sweat.

--work

oakland's been good to me. i think the best part is the people. my coworkers are great, fun loving, and for the most part pretty helpful. my management is awesome. they're the type that you really feel like they have your back. they really inspire me to want to be a better worker to uphold the department.

--the band

our band is down to 3... we have some good stuff coming... i personally haven't really had a lot of time to record though since i have no laptop anymore. i'm actually writing this xanga on my mom's computer. haha.

--asians

which brings me to why i haven't done purchased a laptop. just as a young woman in her 20s has a fear of walking down a dark alley, i think all asians have this innate fear of buying stuff... for fear of being taken advantage of... by a corporation. that's why cyrus and all my other asian friends do woot, spoofee, slickdeals... out of fear. if you buy something at retail price, you have just been stripped naked and beaten by Apple. or Bestbuy. or Capitol Records. anyway i need to just make a decision and buy a laptop. i'm leaning towards a mac.

--the woman

we're doing good! i always joke around at work about how i'm single while i'm on the clock. but inside i'm wondering what i could make for our 9 month anniversary dinner. I KNOW IM LAME.

*identity kept anonymous


Friday, July 31, 2009

new song

i told myself that i'd post irene's valentine's day song as a silly one in order to inspire me to write real stuff.

well 5 months later i'm done! with new stuff!... well. not really stuff. just one song. 1. uno. einz. yut. ee. hana. song.

really it's not much of a song. i think it's just an instrumental in disguise because there are only like 5 lines. can you believe it. that's enough for like 1/4 of a normal song, or 1/100th of a jason mraz song. (that guy is so wordy!!!)  i could recite the whole thing in a sneeze.

draw me in with your eyes
draw me in with your lies
i cry out to anyone
are you a savior
or a voice inside my head?
i cry out to anyone

the poison comes
the poisoner you've become

mmmmmmmmm

- the poisoner

it's about getting yourself stuck and having nobody to save you**.

"hannah" is a landmark for me because the instrumental is so catchy.

i think this one is another landmark because the last part is so epic. it is the most epic instrumental i've ever done. i have to say it's very phonofield-ish. it's crazy what you can do with just a guitar and your voice and some software and your brain. i think there are over 24 tracks in this song.

** DISCLAIMER: IRENE IS NOT THE POISONER!!!! it's just an idea!!! lol. just to clarify.

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on hold

thanks to 4-10s, i have the next three days off in a row. oh baby. time to do some good ol nothing.

i realized today how disconnected i am with everything. i like my job, don't get me wrong; i just think inpatient pharmacy work really clouds your mind with random crap. i really had a dream the other day that we needed to compound more diltiazem oral solution because we kept running out.

like i don't even know what's in fashion anymore. the last article of clothing i got was like in may.

or how my random old friends are doing, you know, the ones you only meet up with on some quarterly or biannual basis (based on the fiscal year)

or what's on the news. last i heard didn't michael jackson die?

or what movies are playing.

or even what day it is.

or when my traffic tickets are due.

i feel like everything's on hold till i get days off. then on my days off i sleep or do something really mindless.

I WANT TO LIVE



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